Hi my name is Liz Davis and I’m a give-aholic. I love to give hugs, healings, guidance, love, and support. If you hand me a gift in mid air I am already thinking about what I can do to give back to you to show I am grateful and I love you. It’s a beautiful thing, but it is also important to allow myself to receive.
When we fail to fully receive in our own life we can cut ourselves off from receiving of all kinds. It could be flow of money, clients, jobs, inspiration, love, whatever you can receive in life. Recently, I have brought more awareness into my give-alholic tendencies and how that manifests in my life. I noticed it stop a flow of abundance in my life. I chose that I needed to shift this as soon as possible. I chose to work out my practice of receiving with the guy I am seeing.
So how do you enroll a guy to get excited about pleasing only for a long amount of time? You let him tie your hands up and use feather, ice, and candle wax all over your body. This might be intense experience for some, but for me, I needed it. I just can’t seem to get out of my giver mode or maybe for you its all in your head, whatever the case,it was exactly what I needed.
It started with just using a feather. Just gliding across my skin. It felt like every cell was screaming, “Me next, me next, me next!!!”. The day faded away, the only thing that existed in my world was this moment. Next, I felt the ice on the inside of the arm. The chilliness giving me goosebumps, followed by a gentle heat from a candle. I had bought these special candles that are safe on bodies out in LA during a trip for my sex coaching school and I was stoked I got to use them.
He wouldn’t let me break eye contact. I had to stay engaged with him pretty much the whole time, as I had requested of him and held me to. I felt so incredibility vulnerable, excited, beautiful, seen, present, it felt like everything and nothing all at once. I felt like I could have exploded back into the atoms that I am made from. I blinked my eyes a few times to come back into my physical body and not just my exploded pieces.
A single tear fell from my eye, I had let myself fully receive, let go, and trust. Allowing myself to receive, let go, and trust a year ago would’ve have scared me to do. Now, it is the only way I want to live and show up in my life because then I know I am living from a place of love and fear. When I was fearful of knowing myself I hesitated to show my full self all the time. The true ecstasy of life is allowing yourself to surrender into the moment. Like anything in life, we need different tools to build and create what it is we are choosing to create.
I invite you all to come into a practice of receiving and giving without a time limit or end game. Just allow yourself to be. Join me this Friday the 13th at Yoga Illumined at 7:15pm for a workshop on playing with the senses. Sign up here! https://squareup.com/market/elizabeth-davis/shades-of-play-workshop Wishing you presence and love. Thank you for reading.